A Letter To Her.

My beautiful girl,

I don’t know if one day you’ll ever read these words, but if you do, I want you to know something important: none of this was your fault. The things you’ve had to hear, the things you’ve had to go without, the moments where you’ve seen me cry—none of it belongs to you. There are things I wanted for us. Holidays, adventures, memories filled with laughter. I wanted to fill your cupboards with food you loved, to always say yes when you asked for dessert, to let you be carefree and five years old without worrying about what “we can’t afford.” I wanted to protect you from words like “it’s okay mam, I can do without.” Because you shouldn’t know those words. But my choices, and his actions, changed things. And I am so sorry for that. I am sorry that his lies and his temper reached into our world and shook it apart. I am sorry that you’ve had to see the cracks when all I wanted was to give you light. But here’s what you need to know: I will never stop fighting for us. Even when it feels impossible, even when I’m angry, even when I’m tired. I will always get back up. For you. Because you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. And no matter what his actions cost us, they can never take away the love we have, the bond we share, or the future we will build together.

Love always, Mam